Career as a health visitor vs coaching

Firstly, I am so pleased to be here as i feel i have so many things to work through and just getting grip on my cycle will improve my overall health and experience and get me back into a more helpful mindset.

 

So the biggest thing on my mind is i just started out in my career as a Health visitor after training and working as a midwife. Alongside my HV training i completed an online business course and launched an online coaching membership for women who want to live a booze free life (which is currently quite small but so far going well).
The thing is i feel totally stretched, my HV job is 4 days a week and FULL ON with lots of heavy stuff, so mentally and emotionally draining.
I love aspects and feel like im really helping families but im only just keeping my little families( single mumma to an 11 year old legend ) head above water financially and physically in terms of actually having quality time together.
The coaching lights me up and i get so excited about where it could go with events and retreats but it feels so out of reach, i don’t feel im giving it my all and i worry im not showing up for my clients as best i know i can.
if i was to give either up, to make financial sense it would have to be coaching, but even so working any more hours would be a stretch and i wouldn’t be following my heart.
so this is my current CTFAR…
C- Im spending 4 days a week working a job i love but in a system i dont love and not earning enough for us to truly thrive. Im spending my spare hours trying to build both financial and physical freedom for me and my son.
T – i cant decide whether to keep going or give up coaching and just work more hours in my HV role
F- overwhelm , stress
A- keep doing what i can in the membership when i can , work my hours
R- continue to be indecisive, feel overwhelmed and stressed and go round in circles.
Would really love your help to figure out whether to change my thoughts or my circumstance.
Thanks

 

Answer:

First, we are pleased that you are here too. 
Second, great job on working through CTFAR. Let’s take a look at it if we clean it up a little. 
C: HV job 4 days/week, Coaching business
T: I do not have enough time or money (Is this the thought that has you feeling stretched?)
F: Stretched
A: Feel drained from HV work, do not think I can work more hours there, see the pay as inadequate, do not see how to grow my coaching business to support family, do not feel that I am showing up well for my coaching business, do not see what I enjoy in the HV job and how it helps my family.
R: I do not give myself enough support to make decisions.
It is difficult to make a decision from scarcity. You have scarcity around time. You have a scarcity of money. Those leave you feeling stretched and uncertain what to do. They also have you not seeing that you have a choice with your time and what you do. You get to decide how much time you spend with each job.
You get to decide when to spend time with your child, and when to work on the business. If you intentionally chose when to spend time on your business, work, or family, how would you show up differently?
If you believed you could make anything possible, what would you decide?