Being ok with not practicing my usual yoga practice part 2

Thank you so much for your helpful coaching, It has really cleaned it up for me. Here are my models on this 2 un intentionals and 2 intentionals, would love your thoughts.

C: I practice yoga once or twice a fortnight.
T: Its not enough.
A: Procrasinate, I withdraw from the practice, I compare myself to other, Buffer, I make excuses about why I don’t pratice like I used to.
R: I dont get on my mat, I create a unhealthy almost resentful relationship with my practice.

C: I practice yoga once or twice a fortnight.
T: I am not devoted enough to teach this method.
F: Dissapointed
A: Beat myself up internally, Push myself to practice, Rush practice, Re think whether I can still teach, Compare myself, Show up to my practice with something to prove, Post bullshit content on my instagram for validation.
R:Create a unhealthy relationship with my practice and my teaching skills.

Intentional.

C: I practice yoga once or twice a fortnight.
T:It is all I require for where I am in my life right now.
F: Content/peaceful
A: I look forward to practicing when I do, I am more present on my mat, I relish in other forms of therapy, My practice is not forced or rushed.
R:I get alot more from my practice and create a healthy relationship with it.

C: I practice yoga once or twice a fortnight.
T:I am a dam good teacher ( I also had another thought ” I have experience” may belong in another model???)
F: Secure/ assertive ( This could go with another model??)
A: Show up assertively for students, Be curious to learn within my practice, Belive in what I am saying to students, Be humble and real for my students, Not pretend to be anything I am not when teaching.
( I think I may have two models in one here, not sure.)

 

 

Answer:

You’ve done some great models here. There will be some cognitive dissonance between where you are and where you want to go. That’s to be expected.

This is all part of evolving as a human.

When you started yoga, it was good and healthy for you. Notice in both your unintentional models how you are creating an unhealthy and resentful relationship with your practice. Not because it changed, but because you changed and that is ok.

You get to decide what is enough. You get to decide what devoted means. Listen to your inner knowing and ask it: What do you really want?

Honor that.