Career Change (Overlapping Jobs) Pt.2

Thanks for your answer; it’s very helpful to me. I realized that ‘rushing‘ is a huge topic for me; you’ve hit the nail on the hat!
I’m able to do big things VERY quickly, and I spent most of my life ‘rushing‘ to reach goals. That was a massive part of my identity (or the thing I spent the most time with). I always had the thought: ‘I‘m able to achieve any kind of goal,‘ and I was quickly having a successful career. My body came up with a disease to tell me: girl, it’s too much – we’re stressed all the time! And then I slowly realized that it’s all about reaching goals and that I‘m so focused on that – that I don’t even recognize the process and that I am not aware when I‘m there because there is already the next goal. (constantly stressed and activated)
If I‘d describe the feeling as an image, it was like free climbing: you go up a bit, then set this safety hook (don’t know what it’s called), and then you continue climbing. I feel that when I decide on something, I immediately need to take action on it. Otherwise, I fall. And to describe the state I’m in: it’s always the same state – there is a huge urge ‚to find a solution‘ and then do it. I am VERY activated, forget to eat, can’t sleep, have a certain tickling feeling within my skin, and can’t communicate with other people. Basically, it feels very threatening to me.
I already got out of this a bit, but this situation is a very good opportunity to explore this more deeply.

 

 

Answer:

Such good awareness and it looks like you’ve been able to explore this without a lot of judgement, just compassionate curiosity which is so important as we are making shifts in our lives. Notice how well this rushed way of being served you in the past. If it isn’t working now, you get to start today to become a a version of you who loves and acknowledges that part of you that wants to rush, but doesn’t want to be in that state anymore.

What are some ladder thoughts that you could think about yourself during this time?

What emotions do you think would serve you best?

If you knew you were safe without rushing to keep holding on tight and climbing higher, what woud you do?