Because I believe that everthing is connected, my observation so far are: I’ve had the BIGGEST shift ever during a concert of one of my favorite bands: It just clicked, and I realized my issue with emptiness/loneliness (BPD symptom > RUSHING) and my huuuuge love towards working and growing a business are linked together. It’s all the same, two sides of the coin. And as I wasn’t embracing my emptiness, I was rushing all the time and I‘ve tried to moderate my skyrocketing passion for business. So this is now who I am and who I wanna be: embracing the emptiness and at the same time diving into my natural force and passion towards working. But I don’t need to rely on rushing to survive anymore.
When I’m slipping back into rushing, I can do very basic things: Breathing deeply is working quite well, any kind of feeling vibration in my body (for example cycling and paying attnetion to the friction from the wheels and the street), doing things EXTRA slowly, and telling myself that I AM and that I AM SAFE
Answer:
Oh yeah! Love all of this so much. Music is so powerful. You’re getting this all on your own, keep listening to that amazing inner voice you’ve found. My only recommendation is to write all of this down or record yourself on video or audio to capture this realization and this connection so that on the days you are feeling rushed again or on days that are hard you can come back to yourself and remind yourself the thoughts that created this feeling for you.
Make your own pep talks, if you will.
You created this. Everything you’ve been working through brought you to the CLICK moment. Congratulations. Imagine all of us cheering for you.