Dealing with grief and lack of self trust

Hi,

About 3 weeks ago I had some very shocking news… My 17 year old nephew took his life. I think for about a week I had this physical reaction of I guess stress. My whole body hurt, joints aching… And then a few days later my brother mentioned he is having another baby with his new girlfriend which his daughter is extremely upset about. So my body then went back into shock and worry for their family for another few days.

Since then i’ve sort of taken a grip of myself and started to get back real life. Focusing on my business and family life but I am finding I am so forgetful, and my brain keeps reading things wrong, like times and places people have messaged me. I read them wrong and so am making a lot of mistakes and letting people down by getting the wrong times etc

It’s making me feel like I can’t trust my brain. I keep trying to read things twice and I feel like I can’t rely on myself at all. Do you have any advice of how I can help bring back some trust in myself again? I just feel like I keep making mistakes and my brain is faulty.

Also, there is a part of me that feels like who am I to feel sad about my nephew. When my brother, his daughter and my parents are suffering so much. My sadness is not valid at all. I logically know this doesn’t make sense but I can’t help feeling embarrassed and a bit attention grabby if I say I feel sad too.

Anyway… That was it really. Thanks for letting me ramble ❤️

Answer:

We are saddened by this news as well – those words simply do not do justice to the enormous amount of compassion and warmth that we are extending to you and your family. Our love is with you.

You just received two pieces of news – one about the loss of a loved one, and one about the creation of another life that is impacting your niece. Meanwhile, you are trying to get back to real life – business and your family life. All of this is real life. This is the shitty 50% that Maisie often mentions. Your brain is not faulty. It may be that your brain is trying to cope as best it can and right now that means that dates and times get mixed up. That’s okay.

I’d love for you to answer your own question, “Who are you to feel sad about your nephew?” through the lens of compassion and love. How would Love answer those questions? How do you feel when you see your answers? What does that allow you to do and not do with and for yourself, your family and your business?

We are here for you to lean on as you navigate this next phase of life and living, and we are holding you from afar.