Down on myself

Question: I have been in a funk for what feels like a while now. I struggle with executive function, especially task initiation and I get adhd paralysis and I have had a hard time keeping up with the house and my life feels incredibly overwhelming even though I try to keep it simple.

This last week, I showed up every day in my business and made myself post on IG and wrote an Email. I have had a bad habit of just sitting on my ideas ( perfectionism and fear of rejection) but I have just been doing it anyway. Also personally I have really been connecting with my hubby, getting my chores done and I started working out again. I’ve also been meditating every day, doing trauma work, leaning more into my cycle awareness practice and I feel like I have a ton to celebrate, but I just feel kind of numb and down on myself. It’s like my mind is like wow look at us but I don’t really feel it. I’m not really sure what that is about. I’m trying not to judge that too much either. And I’m wondering if it may have to do with a medication I take 🤔 I take a low dose of adder-all and have been out of my afternoon dose for a little while now.

I’m wanting feedback on doing all the things and still feeling crappy about myself. Thank you

 

 

Answer:

Check with your doctor to make sure you are taking your medication correctly or get refills.

We can feel crappy about ourselves no matter what we do because the way we feel about ourselves comes from how we think, not from our actions. That is why an Olympic gymnast can make one small mistake and judge themselves harshly while we’re all over here wishing we could even do a cartwheel.

It can take a while to build evidence in your mind that you can trust yourself to follow through. Notice what you think about yourself, do a thought download and just let it all out.  Notice any thoughts that would be obstacles to you feeling better about yourself. You don’t need to change them, just witness them. Love the part of you that has thought that way for a long time.

What if you decided that it was ok that you still felt crappy and you still wanted to keep following through with your goals? While you’re taking action, be open to your relationship with yourself getting better no matter what. Loving yourself has nothing to do with your accomplishments and everything to do with recognizing your value.

What do you like about you? Write at least one thing per day this week and see what happens. Bring back anything that comes up as you explore this.