Embodying A New Reality

Hi Coaches,

I have been navigating some really big changes and I’m really happy about the moves I’ve made. Although it was difficult and pretty messy, I feel I have gained some new fresh energy.

One of the biggest changes comes from the psychedelic assisted therapy that I’ve been doing with my therapist. Something that has happened, and I’m not really sure how, I’ve had a shift in my perception of reality! And I couldn’t be more happy about it. I feel the dissipation of a lot of old fears. I’m interacting with the world diferently, my thoughts are different, and my feelings. I feel really happy with this new perception, and loving the way it has been healing my brain.

I haven’t had the old perception resurface accept for in a heightened moment of stress. I can’t quite explain how the world looks to me now but there is a strong difference between the two ways of being. One side seems to be connected to fear, more analytical, and visually the world looks different, as if through a different filter. I’ve been learning and one connections I made to understand the difference is through the way TCM views the right and left eye. The new way visual perception is much more connected to my left eye (quite literally because I’ve had some changes with my eye) which is connected to yin energy, it is more creative, animate, connected to our spirit, and I find it absolutely lovely!

Everything feels alive, and in the old perception the world seemed much less animate. Human objects seem so playful and wonderful to me now. And I see humans much more like animals and I even find them cute haha. I love how abundant life feels. Everything seems to be humming with life, and the old way, the more mind based way of relating to reality feels wrong to me and I don’t want to live there.

I know it’s not just the mushrooms, I’ve been working for several years to embody this healing I’ve been working so hard on.

What I want coaching on is, I have some fear about reverting back to a more fear based state and losing connection to what I believe to be true reality. I’ve been tracking what helps me connect deeper to the new perspective, I guess it’s like wiring a new neural pathway. But I have a little bit of fear that something will happen and it will take away the healing I gained, and my new perspective. Which is kind of interesting, because fear can take me out of my body, and it’s being in my body that really helps me stay connected.

Maisie was talking about not Dramatizing the Dip in the Who Are You Becoming call, and I thought, maybe I need to prepare a little for when/if I revert back and find a way so that it isn’t a big deal. I’d like to think I can never lose what I’ve discovered, and I sure hope that’s true.

I’m a bit worried about what will happen when I leave canada and don’t have access to the mushroom therapy. I don’t want to lose the healing I’ve gained. It makes me wonder if I should stay longer so I can continue with the therapy.

Could you help coach me on this?

Answer:

Why do you think your brain wants to imagine a time where you “go back?”  It is even possible to go back?Is it possible to lose the healing you’ve gained?  You’ve already started exploring these questions but we’d suggest you do it with a powerful lens.  We don’t just wait around to see what happens, we create the life we want. You get to decide what you believe about how this therapy will affect you now and in the future.  You get to choose where you live and what your reasons are.