Here I am, 5 minutes later. I just got off the phone from my husband and apparently his Dad did actually get me a present but he asked one of our daughters to buy it for him, so she will bring with her tomorrow! Oh my word, now I am relieved but also amazed and curious at how strong a reaction I had to this one event. I didn’t even see or hear the man and my mind took me to a dark place! I’m now laughing and crying at the same time 😀 This is definitely something to explore in the holidays. I know it has to do with expectations and als loss, the loss of my parents and siblings not being close enough over the years to share my life with and the life of my kids. I would still love to hear your thoughts on all this. Thank you 🙂