Feelings about last days at current job

I’m leaving my job by the end of the month and I have only six work days left. I’m proud of myself for quitting and I’m looking forward to the next chapter that is around the corner. But with regards to leaving my current job and closing this door I‘m currently full of fear and stress. I realised I am thinking I should finish every project I started even if they are big and are meant to stretch over months. And that I should even initiate (and finish) the tasks that are foreseable due in the upcoming weeks/months. Cleary a mission impossible for the time I have available. The thought paralyses me and makes my workdays and time off harder than they need to be.
Its both perfectionism and not-eoughness that show up for me here and it is linked to a lot of shame. I think that if I don‘t follow the plan and finish everything, I will be seen as a failure and imposter by my colleagues. In my brain I know this is ridiculous and that it can be neutral (and even positive for me and the new person filling my role) to hand over open tasks. But looking at my emotions I’m still very far away from believing this.
I already asked myself: How could this be easier? And committed to the plan of working regularly on my to dos this week and then using next week only for the handover. I believe it will be helpful to have this plan to hold on to. But I don’t think it will help me to change my thoughts and overcome the shame.
I really want to finish this job in a way that feels good and walk away proud about my achievements and not ashamed. I would love some coaching on this!

 

 

Answer:

What is that shame whispering to you? What is it yelling? Pull up a chair and let it say what it needs to say.  Honor it. Then you decide if you want to believe it.

I would offer that perhaps if you listen, you can turn around some of what’s being said. For example, “If I don’t finish everything my colleagues will think I’m a failure” could become something like “I am committed to doing my best to leave on good terms with my colleagues.”  Notice how one feels powerless and one feel much more powerful? You can put that in a model and create it.

You already know what you can do in the next few days. What if it’s less about the doing and more about who you want to be as you make this transition. What do you think?