Fulfilling Dreams 3

Thanks for you reply it really made me breath and feel expansive – I can shine in any circumstance. I really felt a weight lifted in the response. Writing my feelings here had made me feel I’d said too much created too much noise and been too exposing. Now with this question I wrestle with deciding who I want to be today and what life I want . In the same way I can’t do the 3,5 10 year goals. I can’t decide what life I want. I have a major block in going there. I want to make myself happy I want to feel lighter, more positive in outlook, more confident more expansive , breathing better, more centred with less noise in my head, but the reality is I’m so used to keeping everyone else happy I don’t know how to do that. And I guess keeping everyone happy has helped me avoid these thoughts I thought the answer was painting but the noises in my head questioning/criticising what I’m doing are even worse and make it very hard to decide.And I just can’t see how to answer these questions

Answer:

Of course your brain is questioning and criticising what you’re doing. Your brain has spent a lifetime responding this way when you entertain the thought that it might be possible for you to do what you want.
You don’t have to change anything today. You don’t have to make a giant leap into the unknown right now. You don’t even have to specifically define what kind of life you want. What you can do is notice that this is your brain serving you the same noise that it’s been serving you for as long as you can remember. And it’s trying to keep you safe. This is the part where your brain freaks out. And that’s okay. It doesn’t mean anything about your capacity to grow into the life you want to live.
Sometimes big steps come in small packages. Maybe just noticing that your brain is serving you the thing it knows how to serve best (even though it tastes like sh*t) is that for you right now. What do you think? What comes up for you when you think about this? Come back to us with part 4 when you’re ready.