Get it done goal is getting sticky 2

Honestly, all I wanna say is, No. I’m not recognizing my wins and I don’t relate to the part of me that knows what I can get done and let it be easy. The thought error is that I need structure and a plan or these “wins” are just things I fell into by chance. If I’m flailing about in frustration, trying to figure out how to do things, it’s not success, in my mind.
My intuition is on point in so many areas in my life but I’m not leaning towards it or congratulating it enough. I’m not celebrating my wins because they don’t feel like victories. I’m getting stuff done because I said I would or because I have to. My schoolwork has a deadline, so that gives me a bit of structure (external), but I still don’t have a plan (internal).
I think having a plan here means that I have direction, or maybe bumpers along the edges like a bowling lane. A safety net? I want to feel at ease with the progress I’m making. Again I’m getting frustrated with the part of me that can get things done without a plan. When I recall those instances, it feels rushed or frantic. Can messy and imperfect be accomplished with ease? That’s the question I want to explore. I do see myself as someone who struggles and gets frustrated a lot, so that’s the story to rewrite.

 

 

Answer:

Great exploration. What might be confusing is thinking that recognizing wins always feels good. What picture would you paint of how this goal feels right now? For me, sometimes it looks a lot like slogging through a never ending trail of mud. Everything is hard, everything is messy, and it all feels so slow and exhausting. But still, if I keep going, it’s a win.

Also, you don’t have to count wins if you don’t want to. Any tool that doesn’t work for you, you can drop. Any tools you want to use, do it. Make a plan.

What values do you have inside of you that will help you stick to it this week? What emotion do you want to drive you? I doesn’t have to be a nice comfortable one. Maybe it is frustration. As long as you choose it on purpose, go for it.  See what happens.