How to discover the thought is preventing me from doing the things I enjoy?

There seems to be a barrier in my mind to doing the things I know I love and want to do more of (outdoor activities and writing music).

– I have done the work to correct thoughts that say these things ‘aren’t important’. I now know think they are simply because when I do them I feel excited and alive and that hasn’t changed since I was a child.. so that is important enough for me!

– These things are also no longer connected to other people’s thoughts about me. I genuinely receive other people’s thoughts on my interests as either neutral or interesting.

– Finally, the story I had about not having time is no longer true. I went into to teaching music in a school setting deliberately to give myself time in the school holidays.

YET there is clearly a thought that I am yet to uncover and isolate which is preventing me from actually doing these things still. I am finding myself either mentally paralysed/overwhelmed so I do nothing OR I procrastinate with what I would describe as non-essential domestic tasks. When I do get out to do them, I find an excuse to need to come home quickly because I am feeling a bit foolish and/or guilty.

I’m going to continue with the thought downloads to try to find the primary thought so I can complete an unintentional, model. I wondered if you could ask me some questions to help me discover the primary thought OR if there is another set of tools I could use to get to the bottom of this! Maybe you can see something hidden I’m what I have written!

Thanks in advance,

 

 

Answer:

Celebrate you! It’s such a big step to give yourself permission to do the things you love simply because they bring you joy. It’s the best reason.

What if there’s nothing going wrong here? It sounds like you’re judging yourself for not doing this “right” because you’re procrastinating and feeling paralyzed or coming home early.  Perhaps this is just part of the process of becoming a person who regularly makes time for music and nature as a part of their life.

Think about yourself in 10 years when you have figured this all out. What would that version of you say to you today? You could combine self coaching and song writing and come up with a song you would sing to you and any other person needing encouragement to keep pursuing what they love.