Im thinking of leaving of the membership

I am thinking of leaving because I no longer feel like i’m using enough or in the right ways and I keep thinking i could better spend the money elsewhere. It’s not that I haven’t benefited from it, i really have, but i’m not sure i am benefiting anymore. Ive been a member since April 2023, i’ve been coached once on a model call (i find it hard to make live calls due to work and shared childcare schedule and i struggle to decide exactly what to get coached on and often get too nervous to put my hand up) Ive only taken about 5 or 6 things to ask a coach and i never follow it up or go back for more coaching on the initial thing. Whenever there have been new seasons to set goals or gain access to a new topic, i engage in a minimal way. Like, i listen to the workshop or the calls when i’m washing up or walking or about to go to sleep. I don’t take part in the community, or do the wins or Sunday self care anymore (at the beginning i did the Sunday self care weekly and found it really helpful). I think i’ve fallen off the wagon a bit. I do think a lot of it has gone in/goes in and I find it useful and it certainly got me through a very challenging time in my life last year within my relationship and work situation. But, although i do feel like i’ve changed and in many ways i’m approaching things and coping in much better ways with the insights i’ve gained….nothing has actually changed in my reality. Im still at my job that makes me feel stressed and anxious and like i’m not living my purpose, i’m still living with my ex-partner I have a toddler with and we are still going around and around in negative cycles (like we used to in our relationship) and neither of us can seem to leave or figure out a way forward. I guess there are still lots of areas I need coaching on but i’m just not doing it month after month…. i’m avoidant, buffering a lot, very very stuck. Im like a rabbit in a headlights at the moment. I just don’t know what to do.

Reflecting on what have I achieved as part of the membership?
– Ive become more comfortable with awquardness
– I’ve stood up for myself at work and fought for what im worth
– instead of running away from things being tough at work i’ve stayed and faced my fear of not being good enough and achieved great things
– Ive used self coaching models (in my head mostly) to help me through difficult situations with family and friends and recognise how its affecting me
– Ive been more self compassionate towards myself than ever before – a complete turn around compared to the beginning of last year.
– Ive gotten better at asking for what i need (even if i don’t get exactly what i’ve asked for at least i’ve asked)
– Improved/changed how i experience my relationship with my mum
– Achieved (ongoing) my autumn goal which was to go out more, meet new people – i’ve even gone out on my own a few times! and i made a new friend who i go out to gigs/comedy with and for a morning sauna.
– I take responsibility for myself more than before, not outsourcing my life issues or misery to anyone else. it doesn’t mean i have to go it alone though.
– I experience PMDD and I have gotten a lot better at planning ahead and asking for what i need in this part of my cycle.

 

 

Answer:

 

There is no “right way” to engage in this community or with these resources – if you are benefitting in some way, you’re doing it right for you, and it sounds like you’ve seen some serious benefits!

What do you think would change for you if you leave the membership? What do you think will stay the same? Notice what comes up for you when you answer those questions – pay particular attention to your emotions.

If you decide to stay, why would you be staying?

What do you think about your reasons for both staying and going?

We support you doing what’s right for you – and you know yourself best. We would love to help you walk through this decision making process so you’re making it from an empowered and grounded place within you, whatever direction you decide to go.