Learning to trust my body even when it ‘isn’t working’/breaking the cycle of “self-fulfilling prophecy” thoughts

Hey 🙂
I’d like help creating a model for my thoughts/beliefs about my body/health, and this (un-true) idea that I have about myself as someone who subconsciously self-sabotages and therefore feeds into this idea of self-fulfilling prophecies — ie. I worry that something is inherently wrong with my body and that I have some underlying condition, and so when i get unwell, I believe it’s my fault. I also recently had covid (which triggered a lot of anxieties) and then as I started to recover, I then slipped and fractured my wrist and hurt my back, which then triggered an even deeper anxiety spiral and thoughts about it being my fault and how I could have prevented it etc. and this idea that I am “prone to accidents” because i’ve broken quite a lot of bones and experiences a lot of sport-related injuries over the last few years. I feel a lot of anger, frustration, and sadness, and a sense of mourning my ‘healthy body’ as this last year I haven’t been able to run due to an injury, and now I can’t practise much yoga or workout, which is a huge part of my wellbeing.
To cut a long ‘story’ short – I’d love some tips for being in this place of recovery and working on some useful thoughts to help with the healing process, and trusting that I will heal and that I can trust myself to heal. And that I will be able to move and be physically strong again in the future.

With regards to seeking medical advice — It’s a trigger for me, as over the years, I’ve never really got anywhere, and so it feels ‘pointless’ but then that thought feels very un-useful because if there isn’t something going on, and there’s a reason for the constant body pains etc, then i want to know.
(Thoughts coming: “you don’t value yourself enough to continue pushing doctors etc” “you are scared to know the truth”)

There’s much to unpack here, but currently, my mindset around my health and its impacts on my life are just really holding me back.
Would love to some help to find clarity and work towards creating some helpful intentional models/ways for self coaching on this.

Thanks so much! 🙂

 

 

Answer:

What if it’s true that you’re accident prone and there is something going on in your body? What if no matter how much thought work you do, there will always be a part of your brain that is a hypochondriac? Why is that a problem for you? What do you make it mean? When I was younger, I hated being tall and I slouched and wore flat shoes. It didn’t change my height, though. It wasn’t until I was older I realized I could just accept myself and live my life. My height didn’t change, my thoughts about my body did. You can accept your body in the same way if you want to and let go of the suffering you’re creating now.

Try putting what you believe are negative traits into your circumstance line and do a thought download on all the things you could think about them. Be really open and curious.

I would also offer that this work around your health isn’t holding you back. It’s the class you need to become the person you are meant to be. What would be different if you saw it this way?