Life Goals & Healing Work

Hi Coaches,

I answered your prompt below 🙂
What comes to mind when you answer your own questions:

What if I gave myself the time I need to be with this without judging myself or analyzing my behaviour, without thinking that I’m procrastinating?

I’d probably pick everything up again and begin again. The only reason I wouldn’t is if I gave into some false belief about my productivity. But here’s the thing I’m learning, I get to create my own version of productivity that is going to bring me to my success in a way that I choose. I know it won’t always be easy work but showing up to my work thinking that there’s something wrong with me that I need to change, contort, or push vs showing up and believing that I am amazing, powerful, capable and able to learn anything! That is exciting. There is no where I need to be in my journey except exactly where I’m at.

It brings up urgency. I have these thoughts in my head, it’s too late, or you’ll never be able to make this happen, something difficult will come up and you’ll have to drop everything again. I don’t like this energy. I don’t want to create anything from a place of scarcity and urgency.

What if I trusted that when my cup is refilled I’ll be able to return to my goals with motivation?

Haha! It was like last week that I was wading through this energy. It felt like, as soon as I started to give-in and trust that I wouldn’t always be in this place and that I would want to create again, a wellspring of energy started to come online again! I started small, with cups of tea and books, to picking flowers, to now; returning to my goals and beginning again, with new vigour and perspective. I want to include me, the version of me that has been through so much, she get’s to be a part of this work and I’m not going to mistreat myself in pursuit of a goal. My new goal is to pursue My goals, My way! It can be enjoyable, it can be at my pace, it can be a success at any stage, and it can be what I deem worthy of celebration!

I added this question from my last response because, why not! :
And what is a life that I deem valuable and worthy of pursuing?

A life that is my own to live and create
A life that brings me delight and joy
A life that inspires me
A life of pursuing my dreams
A life that does not conform to what I’ve been told life can be
A life that is unique
A life that includes my desires and honours my past pain
A life where every part of me is welcome

Answer:

Celebrating this exploration with you! We love the thought “I get to create my own version of productivity.” Keep following this and see what you come up with. Remember that it’s not about getting to some perfect place in the future, it’s taking little steps every day.

When you notice the urgency and scarcity, what would be the most loving thing you can do for yourself? What if it’s ok that you have different energies? How can you harness urgency to your benefit? There are no “bad” feelings. Just sensations in our body. Bring back any questions or models you create as you continue towards your goal.