Losing interest but continuing to work on a project

I’m finding it difficult to keep moving forward with things once I lose interest. I think that I’m losing sight of my why’s or reasons for starting the project in the first place. The story that I’m challenging is that I don’t have to like or enjoy what I’m doing to finish it. I’ve been told that you have do some things that you don’t enjoy as part of being an adult. I subconsciously made it my mission to rebel against that statement and try to just do whatever I wanted. It didn’t work out so well, which I can absolutely laugh at now. But this is coming up with my school work now. I’m losing sight of why its important to finish because I’m not enjoying the work at all. I was hoping to learn about the topic I’m studying but the material is put together really poorly. The instructors are not answering my questions either. I think I’ve found one of those online degree programs that could be considered poor quality. That being said, I chose it because it is an accelerated program. So now I’ve discovered that I’m not going to get the experience I was hoping for, but I know I’m going to finish it. I want to do it without feeling like I’m pulling teeth. I’m struggling so much to spend time on my school work because I’m not enjoying it. I don’t want this to be something that I hate doing and do it anyway. That feels terrible. I need help looking at this from a different perspective. Thanks, Coach!

 

 

Answer:

Have you allowed yourself to grieve what you thought this experience would be like? It may seem like a funny question, but it sounds to me like you’re carrying that weight every time you go to do your school work. That’s heavy.  Do some journaling around what you hoped and dreamed of in furthering your education. What did you expect it to feel like? Really let it all out.

Perhaps you could even do a ritual, light a candle, say a few words about that dream so you can let it rest.  Put down that weight.  Then you can have more energy to make the best of what’s right in front of you.  What could you create for yourself if you stopped fighting reality and stayed here, in this moment, in this program just as it is?