Low Grade Thought

Prompted by Maisie’s email this week, I want to work on the following recurring shitty thought:

C: Low Grade Thought
T: I am fat
F: Sad
S: Collapse
A: Physically make myself smaller, collapse, cry, sit in stillness
R: Sad about how I feel with my thought

It’s Day 7 so I’m exploring this on a good day rather than a self-critical day.

What stands out: I make myself physically smaller

How do I move forward/out of this? My brain knows it’s true 🙁 I’m not sure how to re-frame this thought.

I feel strong when there are no mirrors & generally healthy but I can get tired easily, I’m not sure this is to do with my weight though. But when mirrors or other people are involved, I ‘feel/see’ fat.

How do I get out of this loop?

I also have this thought about my general appearance: I look shit on one hand but free & comfy on another. I prefer free and comfy!

Answer:

Great choice to use your cycle for thought work!

It might actually be a good time to examine how you approach yourself when you have low grade thoughts before you dive into changing your model. When you see yourself in this model, how do you treat yourself? What do you do when you notice low grade thoughts emerging, and why? Meaningful change most frequently comes from a place of love – self-love. I wonder if you start with reframing how you can care for or treat yourself in the moments that these low grade thoughts arise, if it will make actually reframing your thoughts about your body a little more accessible.