Making a big decision part 3

This is a follow-up to previous submissions about taking on a herbal course. A lot has been going on since I’ve lost updated. I signed up for the course, without making the payment yet I still have a bit of time before that decision will really have to be made financially, in the meantime, I’ve been exploring. I’ve been talking to more people.. I’ve asked them what their experience is of this professional course on a four year or six year track and the workload. They confirm that it is a lot of work for some. It has caused them to take pause defer year and then restart. meanwhile, I’ve signed up for some other herbal courses, which have the option to sign up for just a month to see if you like it or not and then you can choose if you go for a whole year or a third of year. These courses are self-paced and you can do them slowly for me that feels attractive because I can do it at my own pace and some of them are more specialized for example on trauma and another one is a lot more playful and creative. Meanwhile, reintegrating at work has his challenges. I find it hard to stick to my, three days and not go over. So part of me is thinking this professional course taking it on right now would be too much and could tip me off into burnout yet there is still a part of me that is very attracted to the idea of studying and getting an accredited qualification at the end , because who knows maybe that is my final in the long run.

So with your prompts and questions about what would be the vision and how would I make it possible and if I got rid of the thoughts that time is running out where it would be I have all the time in the world to explore this and you can do it at your own time my decision would be to not do the professional course. Maybe do it next year once I’ve got my balancing act sorted out. And just do the other online courses at my own pace because they will give me different entry points to the herbalism, which is still useful , and later on I saw a quote which was very encouraging, which was : you are work in progress, you don’t rush a masterpiece. And that gave me so much peace.

Because your question about how I want to feel about this decision? I want it to feel like it is coming from a place of self-love not urgency and urgency about running out of time. Since I am a masterpiece, then I have all the time in the world and the best thing for me right now would be too slow down figure out this balancing act at work and not take on so much right now which will put me into panic mode.

There are still some voices in my head that say well you herbal mental already gave you a lot of material to encourage you to start the course she will be disappointed in you, another voice in me and maybe that’s the critical voice is saying really that’s what you’re gonna decide now you’re not gonna quit work that’s a cowardly. So how do I deal with those other voices in my head?

 

 

Answer:

So good! I see so many wins here. What do you see? How are you showing up for yourself in this decision?

For the voices, ground yourself back to who you are. What are your values? What kind of person do you know yourself to be? Make a decision from that place as to how you communicate about your choice.  A thought that can be really helpful when you’re worried about disappointing people is: People pleasing is lying.  If you go ahead with a course you don’t want to do because you are trying to manage someone’s emotions….how does that line up with your values?

Give yourself some love. It can be really difficult to start listening to yourself and making decisions that are best for you. So many of us have lots of practice NOT doing that. When you notice that critical voice coming up, what do you want to say to it? How can you support yourself in those moments? It can also be helpful to stay present. The future is wide open! What if you believed that continuing to build the relationship with yourself is more vital to your success than any course you could ever take?