Model About Time Part 2

Thank you. This was so simple and helpful to start teasing things apart.
Using the strategy of pulling on a thought and feeling combo and seeing what emerges two models came up immediately, even stemming from one initial circumstance.
Both feel pretty good, but I struggle with the intentional models, mostly because the unintentional ones evoke such a negative cloud and stress response.
(I know I was supposed to start with one, but they felt like they belonged together, but if this is too much please ignore the second one)

c I am enrolled in a seminar
t I am not working fast and efficiently enough
f stressed
s tensed jaw, agitated, pressure on my chest
a have a hard time powering down in the evening
have trouble celebrating what I did do
beat myself up for not finishing my planned to-dos
feel rushed doing other things for fun, very mindful of the time, and don’t engage fully
question my choices
question my abilities
get angry about making things worse with the way I am thinking
r I don’t have enough time in the day and enjoy everything less

c answering an email from my Professor from last week which means I might not get an answer before the deadline anymore
t why didn’t you learn your lesson the first time around
f angry, disappointed
s like I want to kick something
a I beat myself up
I struggle to extract a lesson for next time
r I will make the same mistake again

 

 

Answer:

 

 

Great job exploring models here. I’d like to add a few refinements  (in italics) – feel free to take or leave them!

c I am enrolled in a seminar
t I am not working fast and efficiently enough
f stressed
s tensed jaw, agitated, pressure on my chest
a have a hard time powering down in the evening, have trouble celebrating what I did do, beat myself up for not finishing my planned to-dos, feel rushed doing other things for fun, very mindful of the time, and don’t engage fully, question my choices, question my abilities, get angry about making things worse with the way I am thinking
r I find evidence that I am not moving fast enough, and I do not work efficiently

c answering an email from my Professor from last week which means I might not get an answer before the deadline anymore

t you didn’t learn your lesson the first time around (questions aren’t great in the T line because they’re often not fruitful for uncovering what makes you do what you do)…

f angry, disappointed

s like I want to kick something

a I beat myself up, I struggle to extract a lesson for next time

r I don’t learn – I punish myself

How do these tweaks land with you?

We don’t have to jump right into the IM, in fact, sometimes staying with the problem from a place of curiosity can be the best first move. I would like to start by asking you why it’s a problem that you aren’t working fast or efficiently enough and that you don’t think you learned your lesson the first time. What do these two things mean about you? Come back and let us know what bubbles up.