Not Feeling My Seasons

Hi coaches,
I’m feeling frustrated and upset this week because everything I’m hearing and reading about the seasons of the cycle don’t really seem to reflect my experience of my own cycle. I was hoping to find that some of the mood swings and big emotions I feel in life were related to my cycle and after 3 months of tracking I’m just not seeing it. I’ve never had physically ‘difficult’ periods apart from some mild cramping and it seems like it barely makes a difference to me what season I’m in – I *maybe* feel slightly better in autumn, if anything. And the moodiness is just … random? Me being bad at dealing with my emotions? Just being a difficult, perpetually dissatisfied person? I really wanted this to help me understand how I feel sometimes and I’m upset that maybe it’s not the ‘key’ I was hoping for. I’ve just watched Maisie’s model workshop and I’m now worried about the idea of trying to structure achieving my goal around my cycle, (#teamcycle) because it feels sort of meaningless right now.
Some thoughts from a more rational place:
– I was on the pill until about 4 months ago so it makes sense that my moods (which were present then) are not cycle related. Back to the drawing board.
– There is no problem with my cycle except that it doesn’t explain my moods. I’m grateful for a healthy, manageable cycle, even if I’m not getting a creative buzz in spring.

I would love to hear any perspectives on the above – there’s no clear question, I realise, but maybe I just need some wise words 🙂

Thank you.

 

Answer:

Thank you for sharing your experience. Whilst there are common experiences of the cycle, there are also huge variations and no ‘right’ way of experiencing your cycle and seasons.

What understanding about your feelings do you think you would have if they synced with your cycle?

Although changes in your feelings and productivity may relate to cycle changes, it is still the thoughts we have that create those feelings. Understanding how our hormonal shifts may influence the change in ourselves allows for compassion when our brain has a tendency to default to certain thoughts.

To understand your feelings, doing model work will really help. You will begin to discover and understand those thoughts that create those feelings. Just because your cycle may not link up with some thought tendencies does not take away the value of having compassion for yourself for having those thoughts. The awareness allows for that.

What if seeing how your cycle has less of an affect on your feelings is part of the key to what you want to know? How would you feel going forward?