Pulling back from coaching – part 2

I guess I’ve made pulling away from coaching a problem because I’m seeing it as a kind of self sabotage, in that I’m not applying the coaching I’ve already received properly and so not getting the best out of it.
Taking things so far and then disengaging could be helpful to an extent, in that it is stopping me from slipping into overthinking during a busy period and I have been able to make a lot of progress in terms of getting shit done in terms of work and Christmas preparations. This has got me to the point where I am now going to be able to fully disengage from work during the holidays, which will allow time for plenty of rest, so on a functional level that has been helpful. And my hope now is that with more free time and space over the next couple of weeks I will perhaps be able to re-engage with exploring the fear and finding ways to use the thought ‘I am enough’ until I start to believe it on a deeper level.
Your questions have helped me to see that ‘I am not enough’ is showing up in my approach to coaching, and so perhaps accepting my own half-heartedness could be a useful exercise. And I guess in a way it’s the old glass half-full / half empty scenario, a half hearted attempt at telling myself that ‘I am enough’ is still showing up and doing it, just without achieving the 100% mark.
Thank you so much 🙂

 

 

Answer:

Such good insights. Look at you knowing exactly what you needed in this season!

Why does your brain think you have to get the best out of coaching? What does that even mean? I would guess it’s something like “If I were getting the best out of coaching I wouldn’t ……”

Make a loose list (however you feel like, with the capacity you have, when and if you want to) of all the possible ends to this sentence.

Explore. Love. enjoy Christmas. You’re right where you need to be.