Retreat offered by my boyfriend

Hey Coaches,
last year my boyfriend organized his second retreat. I was involved in a lot of the planning and organization and I took over large parts of it. I also taught some classes there (as the only other teacher except him). We had some disagreements, as I have felt my work has not been valued in any way (neither financially nor with him acknowledging my contributions), but he insisted on the retreat being “his”. Done under his name and he got the people coming there.

Anyway, thats the past. He is starting to plan the next retreat and in the conversations he is talking with me, informing me, sometimes asking me for my opinion. I do not want to have the same situation again and I am starting to feel agitated. I would like to be a part of this, I am willing to take over parts of the work, but I want it to be clear what my role is right from the beginning. If he wants to run a one man show – I do not want to step in this time to extinguish fire without him explicitly asking me to do so, and offering me a financial exchange plus an official acknowledgement of my contributions.
I have asked him to clarify his plans towards me. His response was : “You are welcome to teach. About more I will think.”

All this topic is quite messy in my head. I switch between different models, feelings and thoughts. And typing this out I can see more clear how unclear and entangled much of it is right now.
I would love some help to get further in this – I guess I first need to explore what is going on for me. So that I can find a way I want to show up in this. Thank you in acvance!

 

 

Answer:

 

It sounds like you need to be set in what you want for and from yourself in this process and knowing what you are and are not responsible for, and are and are not willing to be responsible for.

Let’s follow up on your hunch to dive into the subject of exploring what is going on for you. Why is it important to you to approach this retreat differently?