Spring Goal – Believing in myself part 3

So I set my goal to write 40,000 words of my novel by summer solstice. This seemed like a manageable goal as I only have to write 4000 words a week. This has worked well for the first 3 weeks I have hit my word count. This week I pretty much hit my word count by Tuesday But…
I am really struggling with the thoughts that are coming up –
That I am not doing enough.
That I could and should have done more. Eg set a higher goal/work faster.
That I am not going about it in the right way (I have just been writing little bits from wherever in the story I feel like it not working in order – taking messy imperfect action.)
These thoughts are having the opposite effect and obviously causing me to loose steam with the writing.
I know at the core of all of these thoughts is the one troubling belief that I can pretty much trace everything back to – That I am not enough.

 

Answer:

First of all, way to go with meeting your word count for the week! For a moment, think of this like data. Simply numbers. You have written 4,000 words by the 2nd day of the week every for the last 4 weeks (or however many it’s been since you set this goal). Get curious – when you think about the numbers as data, how do you respond?
Your brain is going down it’s practiced path – it’s well worn, predictable, and you’ve walked it thousands of times. Let’s consider the thoughts that you’ve mentioned your brain’s shitty first draft of what to think about writing 4000 words by Tuesday this week. If that were true, and you get to write a second, third and even fourth drafts of what you get to think about how you’re meeting your goal, what thoughts would you like to create?
Lastly, goals are not static. You get to use your data to make choices and pivot as you see fit, or not! Explore compassionately – celebrate your wins, and high five yourself for your work thus far!