Talking about my business / work

Hi,
I’m conscious about the language I’m using to talk about my work. I have found things very hard recently!
But find when I tell friends, for example, that I’m struggling, it doesn’t quite convey the nuances.
The nuances are:
– There have been hugely stressful patches recently – especially around pitching and not getting commissions….
– Money has been a huge worry and shame source.
– BUT: this last year has also been the most successful i’ve felt in my work in whole life?!
– And I’m proud of so many of the things I’ve done, including how I’ve ridden the waves of the challenges….

Saying yeah it’s all amazing feels untruthful. But so does saying it’s all bad, because it’s not.

But I also notice I talk less about the successes…. so this could be a place to practice bigging myself up. But it’s interesting because I find it hard to hold the two together?

Eg: I had a really exciting week in my business recently, with 3 projects that happened successfully. Then I saw a friend that week and instead of leading with how Cool all these things were, I spoke about how hard I’d found things and the good parts barely came up.

Maybe there is an issue of taking up space of being able to celebrate my wins externally to people here, even though I’ve got very good at doing it to myself in my head BTW!

Do you have any advice on communicating with nuance in a way that is powerful? And not embedding negative narratives around struggling, rejection, being exposed etc.

Thank you

Answer:

What if there are no bad/good or positive/negative parts of running a business? It sounds like your brain has labelled and categorized loads of your circumstances. These are optional thoughts. How could you take the first step to letting go of some of the judgement you have around 1. your experience of your work as it is now and 2. the way you verbally express that?