Tidiness

Hi
I find I have a difficult time finishing things, in this instance it’s keeping my house tidy. I almost finish but I don’t quite, so it’s nearly really lovely but not quite. I prefer it when I can finish things off, or put things away but I don’t do it. It feels like i put in all the effort and at the end sabotage it somehow.
It feels linked to presenting myself too, I’m happy enough with how I look/my outfit/.hair etc but I leave something not done or just not that nice which I could change but somehow don’t. I am starting to feel a little bit sad about it – like I get to have things nice enough but not really nice. I think this is at play. How can I start either making my house look great or myself look great or working on my thoughts “I deserve the best”?
Thanks

Answer:

This is going to be so juicy. Why do you feel sad when you start to think about this? Or, why do you think you get to have nice enough things but not really nice? Tell us about the thoughts, feelings and sensations you have in the moments that lead up to the point where you decide, “That’s nearly really lovely.”

Also, remember to be gentle and loving with yourself as we pull back the layers on this one. It sounds like it’s very tender and, as with all tender subjects, let’s treat it with respect, kindness and compassion. You deserve that from yourself.