Wanting more while learning to be content with what is

Dear coaches,
during my yearly solstice reflection I came upon an internal conflict, that arises a lot in my daily life. The conflict is between wanting more and settling for what is. But it feels as my true nature is to keep wanting to grow, getting better… And I really like this way of living and thinking, always evolving and searching for a little more “good”, setting goals and chasing them. But I can also see how this constant drive to become the updated version or reach something stands in the way for me to be content with what is right now. And if I would learn to be content with what is now, I hope to find more enjoyment in my daily life.
This conflict shows up in big areas and questions as in “Do I want to stay in my current job or want to look for something even better/change the job curcumstances?”. Even after deciding that right now I do not want to change anything, I am still constantly thinking about different pathes where I would be more evolving, earn more money, have more self-development possible etc etc.
I came up with the thought that both can be possible simultaneously, as in I can keep my desire to grow and also be content with what is (even if it isn’t perfect). But I can not yet really believe that thought, and my lovely brain just likes the old way of doing things and keeps pointing onto things that are change-worthy. I would love any input on the topic.
I am really unhappy with how I make myself not enjoy the good parts of the here and now by imagining and wishing for a different and better future. Thank you!

 

 

Answer:

I would offer that you look at the way you are telling this story. How does it feel to label what is happening as an internal conflict? What does that look like, if you painted a picture of internal conflict? What colors would you use? What obstacles come up in your brain when you believe you have this thing inside of you that needs changing?

Try leaning into acceptance. How is it amazing that you are constantly thinking about different paths? How could you fully, radically love this part of you?

What if contentment is overrated? See what comes up as you explore and come back with any more questions of models you find.