Winter of my cycle

Often before my period I become depressed, emotional, flat, frustrated, overwhelmed, over stimulated, impatient. What also comes with this is a really strong feeling pushing me to quit my job (which I for the most part don’t enjoy) and brings up strong feeling about where I live, my environment. This is not new, it’s been coming up in my winter for many months, even years. I’m still in the same job and house. I feel so frustrated with myself. But for the rest of the cycle I get on with it, I tell myself all the reasons why the jobs okay for now and why staying in this house is my best bet and it’s not too bad after all. I kind of ignore it for the rest of the month. It’s like if I acted on how I felt right now I would write my letter of resignation and I would make any decision that gets me into a new environment. But I’m too scared and lack clarity on what it is I actually want and would if I did these things. I am burning to do them though. I what to step in to the void and see what happens, where it takes me. But I just know I won’t. The thought of spending my savings on doing that feels really irresponsible. But staying in these situations that aren’t serving me also feels really irresponsible too. It feel like doing something a bit drastic is the only way to get things moving though. Ideally I would take slow step to get there but time has showed me that I’m not. It’s like I’ve got too much going on on a daily basis to have the space to make small next steps to get a different job or house.

Any coaching on this would be appreciated. I guess I’m figuring out whether to listen to my winter when I’m feel super negative and how to move away from fatalistic thinking so I can move forwards.

Thanks.

 

 

Answer:

First of all, you are not alone in this so thank you for asking the question. Isn’t it fun having a cycle that tells you to quit all the things for a few days per month! I love your questions you’re asking here. Keep going. Keep exploring. Play with listening to what your winter inner voice is saying.  It might be helpful for you to find those messages and turn them around to create an intentional goal.

For example T: I hate all my coworkers. in your unintentional model becomes R: I work with people I love in your intentional one. Use what you’ve termed “negative” things to show you what you really want and what’s important for you. Notice how in this example, there could be many roads to loving the people you work with. But setting those intentions is the first step to creating the life you want.

I would also offer that your brain is thinking in an all or nothing way. You can stay at your job and be miserable or you can quit and blow through your savings.  Is that true? What other options do you have?

Be onto your brain about having “to much going on.” Our brains love the familiar uncomfortable. It will give us all the reasons we can’t make the shifts we want to.  That’s just brains doing what they do. You don’t have to believe everything you think.  Take your time. Work with your cycle as you explore. Keep listening. Be open to the Universe having your back in all of this.

Bring any questions or models back for more coaching.