I made a start. This is huge. More on that to come, but first my reflections on your question.
When I think I don’t know what I’m doing, it’s a problem because it means I’m not good enough. My brain’s telling me I should be good at everything – perfect. The fact I’ve been asked to do this and don’t know how means I’m the wrong person for the job.
This morning I set an intention to spend half an hour working on this – I wanted to keep it light and easy. I dug out a plan for another area of the business to see what I could copy across, and that got me started. It’s not exactly aligned to my purpose but it got words on the page and I know I can edit afterwards. I was on a roll but I stopped when my time was up so that I could start next time with a clear first step (pick up copying and pasting where I left off). Now that I have something down I have some clarity on my direction. I can see which bits need tweaking, which parts I need to question or follow up on. I know a couple of people I could ask to get the answers or to bounce ideas around with.
The model I’m noticing now is…
C: emergency plan. Deadline end of September.
T: I have some ideas about how to do this
F: Excited
S: heart beats a bit faster, sense of forward momentum
A: look forward to my next session of working on this, picture the plan coming together, research other examples to take ideas from, ask for help and input from others, create a messy first draft, don’t worry about it being perfect
R: I explore my ideas and get things going
I’m celebrating myself tonight! I also see ‘I don’t know what I’m doing’ can get in the way in other areas of my work life. I’m open to whatever coaching you have but as I work on this goal I’d particularly love to focus on what I’m learning that will prepare me for other similar situations.
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