Worries about money

Hello, I am currently doing thought work around money, and I came across the thought that I don’t really know who I am if I wouldn’t worry about money. I grew up quite poor and have been able to earn a steady income the past years, but my nervous system is still worrying and very attached to that worry to the extend that I am not able to make bigger investments in myself even though I could afford it to some extend. I would love your input, here is my model:

C: I worry about money
T: I don’t know who I am if I wouldn’t worry about money
F: numb
A: I don’t move, I ignore possibilities that would move me or my money, I try to play cool when it comes to money (like I pretend to have my shit together when I freeze), I’m not connected to money, nor with the idea to „have money“, I don’t dream and then follow up on that dream, I dream only like it is something that I could never have, like something so outrageous that I forbid any following up because I don’t want to seem stupid
R: I have a bad, cold relationship with money, I don’t know who I could be without that worry, it is like an unknown territory

My intentional model
C: Money flows to me and through me
T: Money has a good place in my system
F: very connected
A: I am lovingly and powerfully connected with money, I invest in myself, I spend the money for things I really like, without any guilt or explaining myself, I breath deeply, I can even dance with money and feel it in my system as support (and not poison), I can feel the money
R: I am financially well supported, money flows to me and through me, money is invested in me, my relationship with money is loving and powerful

Now, that intentional model is quite a surprise to me and gives me a glimpse into who I could be if I let go of that worry. Dancing with the thought of having money seems very strange but feels sooo good! 🙂
Thank you for any ideas on this.

Answer:

Let me start by saying, “WOW.” That is such a powerful realization! I love that you recognized this because considering what could be possible for you if you dropped the familiar (albeit uncomfortable) identity with money is SO fun to explore! Now, let’s take a look at your models.
First, let’s change your C to Me and money (even though you do feel worry, let’s make it as factual as possible). Second, don’t change the circumstance when you are creating your IM. The purpose of an IM is to explore other ways you could decidedly think about the same circumstance to which, until now, you’ve responded with default thoughts. I love what your intentional model brought up for you about things that you might do if you weren’t worried about money. Notice that I didn’t say who you’d be…you’d still be YOU, just with a different set of thoughts running your show.
This being said, what do think might be different if you weren’t worried about money? To use your words…who might you be? What what side of you would you be able to get to know?
Check out the Money Mindset webinar in the Bonuses tab as it will likely be very helpful for you right now, and come back to us when you’re ready for more coaching on this.