Thank you. I do feel a sense of accomplishment. I actually used the energy to challenge myself to do another submission (of another thing I’m writing) in 5 days which I also managed. But again rather than celebrating I felt that one was not as good as it could have been either.
I guess I’m comparing my work to my favourite published plays. Which I know is holding myself to a very high standard. Not just a professional play but some of the best plays of all time…
I just want to feel like I’ve done the best that I can but I don’t feel like that because I could list all the things that are not quite right. But really I have done the best that I can right now because even if I had a load more time I would be a bit stuck for how to solve all the issues I’ve highlighted. My ability hasn’t quite caught up to my taste.
I think maybe it’s partly fear of rejection/preparing myself for rejection by saying I know there were all these things wrong. But that’s not it entirely because even if someone said they wanted to put it on/thought it was good there would still be stuff I’d want to change/improve.
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