Goals: Decision Making

I’m noticing the familiar confusion around decision making arise. During the winter workshop visualization, I could clearly see a vision for ten years, but the actions to get there started to get hazy as I tried to visualize three years & then one year. The same thing happened when I did the summer workshop visualization.
This summer I was torn between the decision of going to grad school or staying in Boulder this fall then traveling to New Zealand in the winter. After months of being in confusion, I decided on the latter. All fall I’ve been telling people I’m going to go to New Zealand, but now that the time has arrived I’m having so many doubts. I’m finding myself in a parallel confusion; I’m torn between two potential paths: 1. Fulfill my dream of traveling to New Zealand for a few months and 2. Stay in Boulder this winter, deeply rest, foster deeper roots of connection/community.
During the womb visualization, I felt a call to stay here in Boulder & rest before emerging again in the spring. This call was in direct contract to my New Zealand travel plans. I’m feeling very conflicted around what to do and how to move forward. I know I’m wallowing in confusion—I want to get out of this space, take action and move forward…but I’m not sure what action to take.

 

 

Answer:

Does your desire to stay in Boulder feel like it’s coming from doubt and fear? Your circumstance is C: I have plans to go to New Zealand.  That’s the decision you made and you’ve probably got some plans in place, plane tickets, places to stay, etc. Those can all go in the circumstance.

What is the thought that is bringing up the doubt?

There is no wrong answer here, and there are infinite ways to spend your time over the next few months. You just get to decide and you get to decide how you want to feel about your choice.

If you really think it’s your inner knowing telling you to stay home, then do that, no regrets necessary. Does not matter who you’ve told or what your plans were. If you feel like it’s coming from that human part of us that doesn’t like the unknown and prefers to stay in the warm, safe cave….that’s ok too. But you might want to question it until it feels more aligned.

What do you think? What if you truy believed that you could have exactly what you want and the timing would work out perfectly?